I Did Not Speak It

by red steppes

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A single from the upcoming album "A Mouth May Grow"


As all those houses falling waterward, I fell
with your back to the hills,
with your clothing all filthy,
standing terribly still
Like a child just barely old enough
to see that she won't long be young
I saw it
I did not believe it
so I did not speak it

And I woke wrapped in your riding jacket
with a mouth full of sand
with a throat full of furtive sadness
like a widow startled
by some strange resemblance
I saw you
but I did not know you
so I did not speak it

One lost postcard from high country:
did it master me? am I captive,
trading an honest thing for more silence?

So I drove down to your dry white city
with no sleep
with no place to call home
I was drawn past your door
I was drawn on and on
as if convinced by one small loss
that all that's gained comes at great cost
I called you
but I could not reach you
so I did not speak it


released December 2, 2015
Nika Aila States: Vocals, Acoustic guitar
Owen Adair Kelley: Electric Guitar
Jason Slota: Percussion
Andrew Maquire: Vibes
Robert Shelton: Keys
James Riotto: Bass

Engineered by James Riotto at Tiny Telephone Studios



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by Nika Aila States

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